I almost never talk about my love life on my blog. In the nearly 7 years of this, under many names, it has never been a place for me to discuss love, romance or sex. Today two of those will change. I recently met an amazing woman. Her name is Liz, and she has shown me how interesting, intriguing, and deep a person I am. She showed me every time we talked that I was someone who mattered, if only to this amazing, caring, and sweet woman. I have come to love her.
Some of those out there might think they have heard this before, but I have begun to realize in the last 48 hours that it is fact. I love Liz. I love make her smile, and laugh. I love hearing about her life and her past. I have enjoyed answering her questions and coming to realize that those little things, those things that have filled up the last 7 years of this blog and more I never wrote, all of this is of interest to one person. Liz.
I also made a mistake. I took my feelings and drove them in the wrong direction. I drove them to the lust side of things. Yeah, the men out there who have loved and lost, or loved and barely groveled a place will know what I mean. I tried to take those emotions, and that desire to hold her, and just be with her in the flesh instead of the pixels, and turned it sexual when it wasn't the place. I am not sure where she and I will end up, I hope for at least a close and dear friend. I would be honored for more. I love you Liz.
Some of those out there might think they have heard this before, but I have begun to realize in the last 48 hours that it is fact. I love Liz. I love make her smile, and laugh. I love hearing about her life and her past. I have enjoyed answering her questions and coming to realize that those little things, those things that have filled up the last 7 years of this blog and more I never wrote, all of this is of interest to one person. Liz.
I also made a mistake. I took my feelings and drove them in the wrong direction. I drove them to the lust side of things. Yeah, the men out there who have loved and lost, or loved and barely groveled a place will know what I mean. I tried to take those emotions, and that desire to hold her, and just be with her in the flesh instead of the pixels, and turned it sexual when it wasn't the place. I am not sure where she and I will end up, I hope for at least a close and dear friend. I would be honored for more. I love you Liz.
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